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And after everyone left the kitchen,
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I went into that room,
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and I opened one of the backpacks.
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And... and I found some change
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quarters, dimes, pennies.
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I felt like I was gonna faint.
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I began to rub the coins together
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between my fingers
and then I began to dig my nails
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into the coin's... flesh,
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the surface.
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It was like
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a series of waves.
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That's how I knew.
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It must have been wonderful.
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- It was.
- Have these experiences continued?
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Well...
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I felt so guilty about it
the first time,
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I was determined
never to do it again.
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But I did do it again
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and after a while,
I stopped feeling guilty about it.
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But I... I still would like to know...
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why I get my pleasure this way.
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Because it is restricted.
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Can I ask you a question
about something you described?
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- Yes.
- Did you keep the coins?
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Well, I only needed
a few at a time.
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I never would have given
them back.
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You didn't buzz first.
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I'm sorry, I forgot.
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If you don't watch out,
you'll lose your key privileges.
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I hope you are not serious.
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I just like to know
you're coming up, that's all.
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Not too much to ask, is it?
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What are we arguing about here?
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My right to privacy.
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That's bullshit.
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Suzanne, you don't like the way
I do anything these days.
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Ugh, could you tell whoever it is
I'll call them back, please?
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Hello?
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She's not here right now.
Can I take message?
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Juno?
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And she has your number?
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I'll take it.
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This is the woman
you used to work for, isn't it?
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Hi, Juno.
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Let's try again.
I know you can get it.
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F...
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free.
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- Let's try it another way.
- I don't wanna do this.
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- Let's just see...
- I don't wanna do this!
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- Peter...
- No!
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Hi, you've reached Suzanne.
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Please leave a message.
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Suzanne, I was...
it's Peter.
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I was wondering if we could
get together later?
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Do you think that's a good idea?
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I think it's a good idea.
Would you call me back when you...
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when you get a chance?
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Yeah?
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Lisa, hi.
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I've got one of
the Board of Directors up front.
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Shit.
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00:31:09,659 --> 00:31:11,910
I'm not even close to ready
with this thing.
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00:31:12,078 --> 00:31:15,372
I told them I wasn't sure
if you'd left yet.
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- If you don't mind.
- No problem.
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Thanks.
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You may open your eyes now.
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You're fighting it today,
Peter.
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Yeah, I know.
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I know.
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Let the control go.
Come on, you're experienced.
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You know how to do this.
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00:32:11,095 --> 00:32:12,596
Hey.
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You really have runner's legs.
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00:33:05,775 --> 00:33:07,859
Not too much to grab on to.
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Let your body lead the way.
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I wanna be taken apart.
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Thank you.
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Are you ready to worship me?
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Yes.
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Yes?
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Yes.
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00:34:03,666 --> 00:34:07,961
The year I turned 16 was the most
horrible year of my whole life.
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We had just arrived from Germany
to finally join my father,
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00:34:13,593 --> 00:34:15,385
but...
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00:34:15,553 --> 00:34:17,971
my parents' marriage
was always a disaster
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and he basically left right away.
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00:34:21,768 --> 00:34:24,561
He came to visit me
and my brother sometimes.
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00:34:25,813 --> 00:34:29,107
And then, some months later,
around Christmas,
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00:34:29,275 --> 00:34:32,861
he just crashed into this truck
in the middle of nowhere.
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00:34:33,029 --> 00:34:35,363
Boom.
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00:34:35,531 --> 00:34:37,324
Life, I can tell you.
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00:34:39,035 --> 00:34:40,494
Were you... were you close?
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00:34:40,661 --> 00:34:42,370
- To him?
- Yeah.
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00:34:42,538 --> 00:34:46,124
I was his favorite.
I wanted it to be that way.
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00:34:46,292 --> 00:34:49,377
I think I even flirted with him.
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00:34:51,214 --> 00:34:53,131
In fact, I know I did.
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00:34:55,134 --> 00:34:57,177
- Did anything...
- No.
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00:35:00,598 --> 00:35:03,058
Not with him,
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00:35:03,226 --> 00:35:07,729
but my mother always hated
how close we were.
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00:35:07,897 --> 00:35:09,231
She was jealous.
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00:35:09,398 --> 00:35:12,442
She...
she always punished everyone
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00:35:12,610 --> 00:35:14,736
for her own unhappiness
her whole life.
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00:35:14,904 --> 00:35:18,031
Just like she punished me
and my brother when my dad died.
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00:35:21,410 --> 00:35:23,370
She was so cold and removed.
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00:35:23,538 --> 00:35:24,830
Sometimes when people
are in shock...
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00:35:24,997 --> 00:35:26,623
Look, Peter,
I have a therapist.
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00:35:26,791 --> 00:35:29,167
I talk to her once a week,
I don't need another one.
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00:35:29,335 --> 00:35:32,045
Yeah, yeah, right.
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00:35:34,799 --> 00:35:38,260
I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to be so harsh.
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00:35:47,103 --> 00:35:48,895
- I should go.
- I'll get you a cab.
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00:35:49,063 --> 00:35:52,566
- No, I like walking.
- I'll walk with you.
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00:35:52,733 --> 00:35:54,818
No, I like walking alone.
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00:37:02,803 --> 00:37:04,721
Stop.
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00:37:06,390 --> 00:37:08,350
Please let me continue.
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00:37:15,024 --> 00:37:18,485
Let me... smell you.
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00:37:41,175 --> 00:37:43,009
Lie down.
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00:37:46,555 --> 00:37:50,141
Lie down, Peter.
We only have a few minutes left.
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00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:58,001
I remember being so bored that summer.
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00:38:58,169 --> 00:39:00,837
Also terrified
of trying to make friends.